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you left the community as a whole?

Yes. My host only stayed long enough to learn how to create a tulpa.

3:20 AM

Around a week or two.

Ahh, ok

I've had really good progress with mine

I do think this may be a reason for our strange behaviour and function.

Went from barely sentience to multiple detailed mindscapes and many conversations

Mena, are you the giant?

Did you start with a tulpa, or did you only make /were made once your host found the community?

the giant?

My host created me after.

3:22 AM

Never mind, different Mena. Congrats, still.

for a second I was wondering if you were somehow "naturally" like this in the ways that people who are plural naturally have tulpa from the get-go

3:22 AM

or not-tulpa, but may as well be tulpa (edited)

Not at all.

I miss that mena :c

12:41 PM

Alas, such is the life of a tulpa

12:41 PM

Making friends that can just disappear one day

Like all tulpa

Tulpas can't disappear in the blink of an eye.

can they not?

Nope

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but many hosts can do "nah I'm not doing this anymore".

My host wouldn't be able to do that lol (edited)

She tried blocking me out at work yesterday, just to see if she could do it

3:29 PM

Needless to say, she failed and I took back over in a snap

I'm pretty sure she talked about this

3:29 PM

that being said, that kind of thing scares me

In the other server, yeah

I really don't want to ever get to a point where Ikari can sideline me at will

I've been fronting consistently with her permission

3:30 PM

This is a gradual thing

3:30 PM

Takes a lot of practice

if she has a reason to be using my body, she can ask me and I'm perfectly capable of allowing her to do so...

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yeah I know but

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I don't want to practice so much that this is possible

Lyra can still use the body at any time

3:30 PM

My thoughts are just louder and more pronounced than hers, at this point

I know, that scares me

3:33 PM

I am the primary and I intend to stay that way

3:33 PM

I love Ikari very much but I wouldn't be able to accept that kind of outcome....anyway I'm not going to let her get that strong

it's not a zero-sum game. You shouldn't feel like you have to hold her back.

This is a mutual agreement thing in my system

Why wouldn't you trust her?

Everyone wants and trusts me to be the main front

3:34 PM

I wouldn't do anything bad or to harm them

It's not that--- no actually it is

3:35 PM

I'm sure our trust will grow as we go on

3:35 PM

but at least right now, I would not be comfortable with her becoming the primary

3:35 PM

I know she wouldn't harm me

3:35 PM

but I have serious goals that I want to pursue and it takes a great deal of time and effort

3:36 PM

and IDK if she'd put that in, at least RN I don't

3:37 PM

@Felight that's good that they want you to be the primary - I'm not knocking that; I'm just saying that I prefer to be my own primary, given that it's my life, my body and I've done all the effort to this point to maintain it (edited)

That's cool. Usually tulpas don't want to be the main front if the host does.

3:41 PM

You should be fine

cool

there's no harm in waiting and being patient.

I agree

3:43 PM

Also Ikari is hyper right now and I have no idea why

3:43 PM

she's like halfway between her cat form and human form...shes a freaking catgirl and she's boucing around the bunker like a supersonic tennis ball (edited)

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3:44 PM

[WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE]

Okay cool. Tmi

Tmi?

3:45 PM

Was bedeutet das?

Oh cool. I thought you said you blocked me

3:46 PM

I speak english

well I unblocked you

Oh yeah. It was worthless. You kept replying anyways so eh

I don't like the block system in Discord becaue it creates drop-down tabs that look terrible.

3:47 PM

I only tempblock people if they're pissing me off at the moment

3:47 PM

and then I still usually end up reading their shit xD

3:47 PM

I don't like being left out of convos lol

Oh. Yeah. I think you blocked Harley because my host doesnt wanna marry his gf? I mean idk why really

3:47 PM

It's kinda weird

not that

3:48 PM

well maybe that

3:48 PM

I don't remember anymore

Yeah no. It happened during that convo

This is off-topic, guys. Please move it to #lounge.

Which is really fucking weird

3:48 PM

Oh. Hey no

3:48 PM

We are gonna relate it back

we are?

3:49 PM

how?

Anyways dating your own tulpa is fucking annoying when you have trouble with talking to people in your system

brilliant observation

3:49 PM

Dating anyone is annoying when you can't hear them lol

They can hear

3:50 PM

Talking is just clunky

well, ya know.....same difference

I mean no. Lol

3:51 PM

But sure why the fuck not

There's something I've noticed about tulpas and hosts for a while now that I think would be interesting to discuss. I've seen this backed up in some polls too

5:08 PM

Has anyone else noticed that male hosts usually make female tulpas, while female hosts usually make male tulpas? Sometimes it's not just binary, but it still seems common from what I've seen

5:09 PM

And I don't think it's necessarily a romantic reason, since not everyone dates their tulpa or whatnot. Maybe opposites attract?

I do think that is because most people are straight, or if bisexual, they prefer the opposite sex, still. I do think this helps when you are focusing on this thing for hours before it responds. It keeps you interested.

5:10 PM

I have been curious, as well, if it is an unconscious desire to want to see the world from the view of the opposite sex, at least as closely as they can.

Yeah. Maybe some people also just want companionship from the opposite gender. I would imagine people tend to be friends with people of their own gender more irl, so having a tulpa who is of the opposite could give them a different experience

my personal theory is that it's more to make the tulpa clearly different from the host.